I fucking hate siblings. Correction I hate my family. First I get yelled at for coming home late from my brother not like it matters to him and that is such a fucking piss off. I got. I bitched at for talking to my little sister on the phone and it was like 12 at night cause I was walking home and my brother thinks that’s just bullshit I only called cause I wanted her to open the door for me. Fuck! I hate it how my brother and step mom thinks so low of me and not only that my step mom think’s that I’m just a waste of time and not like anyone wants to care about me and I just hate how this family runs. Oh yes, let’s not forget about the big man in the house; my father. He thinks that I’m retarded and stupid no matter what I do. He never trusts me and thinks that I’m a bitch and I’m going to end up like my sister. Just shut up already and let me live my life, you clearly don’t love me the way you love your youngest daughter; my half sister. You fucking bought her a damn 4 wheel dirt bike and she is only 11! I only have 1 more week of school left and everyone in my class just gets on my nerves. These two guys that sit behind me is just so full of shit and think they are so fucking smart. “Yo did you know I haven’t been doing any homework in this class and I’m getting 80’s and 90’s.” Well you know what buddy? Go suck it you fag. Also my fucking little sister is just so fucking spoiled and full of shit. She always thinks she is the best and get w.e she wants. She can’t even fold her own clothes! I hate my family.
I Love You,…I Love You not? Every time I see you I get this warm fuzzy feeling and it feels good. =) But then when we don’t see one another very often I tend to lose all feelings for you and I think to myself, “It’s just another boy, whatever.” But when I see you, it happens all over again. I’m so confused! What is my heart trying to tell me? I’ll just tell myself that I hate you. That seems to solve the problem \(^^)/ most of the time. Then again, I like seeing you when I have the time to chill but that doesn’t seem like it’s going to happen anytime soon due to Summer school. I’m still confused everyday of my life because of you.
Note: This blog might be long. Another horrible day of summer school. I am so sick of school especially Pure Math 30. Today we had a test and I bomb that test really bad. That totally ruined the rest of day, but guess what? The bad luck doesn’t stop there. Half way during the class I had a really bad stomach ache and had to go to the washroom. (No good results) Later on that day, while everyone was on break I was eating and my fork dropped on the ground! I had to go asked the teacher to go to the washroom and he thought that I had to “go,” he didn’t answer me for the longest time and he finally answered with “sure, but you should’ve went on break.” There was no point in arguing back or telling him that I was going to the washroom to wash my damn fork.
Hm.. I really wanted to go Stampede with the badminton gang but then I totally did not have the time and they all went on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday? Recently John and I have been hanging out a lot and it’s cool and everything but then On a Friday we were planning on going to hang out to go eat. Plans change you know? This year Stampede for me wasn’t planned haha. We ended up going to Stampede not knowing what we are suppose to be doing and it was really fun, I’m glad I went. Cause it seems like this would be the last year that I would ever be going to Stampede. We went on the Skyscraper and OMG!! It was AWESOME! I never had this much fun for a while it was great =) Too bad it won’t happen for a long time. Video will be on facebook? Soon haha
Wow. After june 2010 exams I only had 1 week of my summer vacation then summer school started on Canada Day! C’mon who starts school on a fucking holiday?! Apparently us; Canadians! Geez! So summer school is pissing me off lately and I can’t even concentrate, while everyone around me is enjoying their summer vacation. Some do nothing, some go to Stampede and even play games all day/night long. At least that’s more fun then attending school! I’m an idiot I brought this upon myself. So many of my friends already asked me to go to Stampede, and sadly I rejected them and said no. Stupid summer school! Why do you gotta screw me over! Right now, I know for a fact that when this month of July is over and I walk out of my exam on August 6, I’m going to think to myself “what a waste of time and money” for not trying hard enough to get a decent grade that I would be proud of. I hate my life and I also hate math.
Damn, I keep telling myself I would always speak my mind and apparently I am known as the most gusty among my friends, and sometimes I’m the meanest. Haha. Whenever I have something to say I repeat it over and over again in my head and when it’s time to say what I’ve been thinking.. I blank out! That’s ridiculous! But maybe next time I would be able to gather up my courage and just tell them then. What do you think?
I don’t know why but when I try saying something, I start off with one word then I freak out?!?!? What?!?! I’m thinking to myself “ARE YOU RETARDED!?!” Then the moment passes. That sucks for me. I especially hate it when you LOOK AT ME @_@ and I’m trying to speak. Then ohhh what do-ya know ———. LOL!
Boy: Baby, we need to talk.
Girl: Ricardo, what do u mean?
Boy: Something has come up…
Girl: What? What’s wrong? Is it bad?
Boy: I don’t want to hurt you, baby.
Girl: *Thinks* Oh my God, I hope he doesn’t break up with me… I love him so much.
Boy: Baby, are you there??
Girl: Yeah, I’m here. What is so important??
Boy: I’m not sure if I should say it..
Girl: Well, you already brought it up, so please just tell me.
Boy: I’m leaving…
Girl: Baby, what are u talking about?? I don’t want you to leave me, I love you.
Boy: Not like that, I mean I’m moving far away.
Girl: Why? All of your family lives over here.
Boy: Well, my father is sending me away to a boarding school far away.
Girl: I can’t believe this. [FATHER: (Picks up the other phone, interrupts & yells furiously ERICA!, what did I tell you about talking to boys?!!!… Get off the damn phone!! (And hangs up).]
There is nothing special of what I have done these past few days. All I know is that love is a pain in the ass, and what ever we shared with one another, that’s the past. I hate the thought of losing you over some girl which I may know or may not like in the future. Everyday I think about you and not one bit of it have I ever regretted it. Love sucks. The only things that ever cheered me up was sugar, sweets, and of course seeing you smile. Anything to do with you will always be a part of me. But I must say this is the last chance that I will be ever thinking about you and act like nothing has happen so it will be easier to move on. There’s no doubt that I have never thought about being together, I always had that thought. But I guess being friends is just as good. I don’t want this 6 years of friendship to go down the drain once you find out. Cause for the past 6 years that’s how I felt about you the first time we ever met. Bye, forever. Your secret admirer.
A teenage girl about 17 had gone to visit some friends one evening and time passed quickly as each shared their various experiences of the past year. She ended up staying longer than planned, and had to walk home alone. She wasn’t afraid because it was a small town and she lived only a few blocks away. As she walked along under the tall elm trees, Diane asked God to keep her safe from harm and danger. When she reached the alley, which was a short cut to her house, she decided to take it. However, halfway down the alley she noticed a man standing at the end as though he was waiting for her. She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for God’s protection. Instantly a comforting feeling of quietness and security wrapped round her, she felt as though someone was walking with her. When she reached the end of the alley, she walked right past the man and arrived home safely. The following day, she read in the newspaper that a young girl had been raped in the same alley just twenty minutes after she had been there. Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the fact that it could have been her, she began to weep. Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help this young woman, she decided to go to the police station. She felt she could recognize the man, so she told them her story. The police asked her if she would be willing to look at a lineup to see if she could identify him. She agreed and immediately pointed out the man she had seen in the alley the night before. When the man was told he had been identified, he immediately broke down and confessed. The officer thanked Diane for her bravery and asked if there was anything they could do for her. She asked if they would ask the man one question. Diane was curious as to why he had not attacked her. When the policeman asked him, he answered, “Because she wasn’t alone. She had two tall men walking on either side of her.” Amazingly, whether you believe or not, you’re never alone. Did you know that 98% of teenagers will not stand up for God? Repost this as Love vs. Sex if you truly believe in God. PS: God is always there in your heart and loves you no matter what and if you stand up for him he will stand up for you. I bet 93% of the people that read this wont repost it. I read this and reposted it. Well I bet you read this note because of the title, didn’t you?
“Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn’t mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine”
The other night I had a very horrible nightmare. I woke up in tears and was sweating a lot. I couldn’t stop crying that’s how scary my nightmare was this freaked me out so much. The nightmare was basically about me losing someone and finding out they were dead. I had to ask around and this one stranger told me their last words were “He loves me.” In my nightmare I was crying a lot and just walking around aimlessly then I shot up from my nightmare and started crying. I never want to feel this horrible emotion again.
Note: Don’t sleep on your back; apparently that’s where you get nightmares.
Today I went to Chi Han’s house and she buzzed half my hair! She made a design which it was a star and it’s awesome hahah. I look so hard core! Well people suggested that I should but I was kinda copying this girl named Christina N. Sorry! But you have some nice ass style girl lol.
Last night I had a really nice dream. Unfortunately I don’t want to say haha. But I think dreams are a vision that will happen in the future some day or someone is trying to warn you about something bad.
Today is Canada Day, and all of Canada should know that haha but if you don’t then you are probably American! Lol. The only thing that was crappy about today is that I had summer school on a holiday!! Oh well at least it wasn’t that boring cause the teacher was not boring. But what made me mad the most was this one chick in my class… Oh my lord she was the dumbest of the dumbest!! Okay yah she is nice and stuff but really stupid. All the questions she asked were really simple and obvious yet she couldn’t tell the difference between a comma and … I don’t know what the he’ll she was doing lol. Oh and since it’s 12 I went to Sylvan lake with a bunch of my friends and it was so much fun! Honestly after that day I now know who my real friends really are. You know who you are. ;]